Day #5: Texas is TOO Hot

Today was just ridiculously hot! I went to my godmothers and her sister left the feeding chores to me (not supposed to be my job). I was litterally pouring sweat off of my body, because it was noon and the hottest part of the day. Then I got stuck making a huge Walmart run.

I went to see a friend and swim at the place she is house sitting. The pool was so nice. I haven't really gone swimming much this summer, which I guess is probably because I'm not happy with my body. That is something I am also going to work on while I'm in the process of changing other things in my life.

I got some unfortunate news today, that an old friend of mine said some less than stellar things about me. I've never had anything bad to say about her, so I was really blind sided about this. Needless to say, I am extremely hurt by what she said. Especially since we really haven't been close in many years... which I didn't think anything of. As we grow up, a lot of us will grow apart. That's a natural part of life, or so I thought. Apparently she attributes us growing apart to me being a co-dependent, self-absorbed brat.

Unfortunately, I can't say that she is totally wrong, which is probably why it hurts so bad. I haven't been the best friend in the past year and a half. However, she and I haven't really been close friends in.... 2 or 3 years. She lived 4 hours away, and we really stopped having anything in common. I guess I wonder how many of my friends feel the same way she does. I can't really blame any of them for feeling like I ditched them. I did. I ditched them, my family, and myself. All for a guy who drained me physically, emotionally, and mentally. A man I thought I loved, and I thought loved me.

I guess it hurt more because, instead of bringing this up to me, she said it to someone neither one of us has ever met. He's just a facebook friend. Who knows if I will ever meet this guy. He's been a pretty decent friend that I feel like I can talk to. He was really mad about the whole thing, because he feels like she was just starting drama and nonsense. I'm not sure what happened, I'm really not. If it had been a closer friend, I could have DEFINITELY seen where they would have a stance for saying something like that, but she isn't that close of a friend anymore.

I guess she's not a friend at all.... Oh well.